Even in those small talks
I was the hearing dog amidst
The crowded pavement
Sometimes, only sometimes
It felt for a split second
Maybe you wanted to talk to me
As much as I did to you
But even those never lasted in a heartbeat
Only in my dreams
I could ever have a conversation with you.
Bout those gave me wild expectations
That’ll never come true
I wanna forget you
I wanna erase you outta my life
Before I realise,
It was all for nothing
I don’t want to be shattered
When reality smites me.
Foretold
I wanna forget you
I wanna erase you outta my life
This torture of subconsciously
Wanting you
Feels no less than a punishment
An insane thought crossed
My while mind.
That I’ve crushed on you for 7
Long years
Too afraid to admit its love
Because what if it isn’t?
Or is it?
Even if it is
Does it matter?
You never bothered!
All I was to you
Was What’s new?
But the truth is
My thoughts will never abandon you
The wait that lasted 7 years
May just last another 100
Am I so imbecile to long for
He who doesn’t care I exist?
Will this poem just be another cringy one
That he’ll ignore?
I don’t want these questions
Be answered
I’m afraid I’ll loose
Whatever I have left of you
Even if it’s the tiniest bit
I don’t know why I yearn for you ?
I never met the real you!
I don’t wanna forget you
I don’t want erase you
Even if it’s torture
I’ll live with it all my life.